ChrisKonow: Ramblings of a Depressed Gay Thirst Trap

The stereotypical image of a sexy man is someone big, buff, bit of body hair and with a big dick, well that I can sign off on (even if body expectations are wildly unrealistic), but the part that I can't sign off on is emotionless silent types. Many dating bios instead of saying about themselves or what they like in a partner, reel off all the things they don't want, and one of those things is regularly not wanting a partner who is a drama. Don't get me wrong, being with someone who is a constant whirlwind causing destruction in their wake isn't attractive, but I feel when people say they don't want drama it's also partially referencing emotional types. What is so wrong with being a man in touch with his emotions? I don't know about anyone else but I find a man with little emotional depth to be a massive turn off, like I might as well be chatting to a plank of fucking wood. From a young age, it's drilled into you that what's the most attractive kin...

As I am writing this, I am isolating with covid. It's taken me 2 and a half years to catch covid, and in the style of a typical instagay testing positive, I have to say “She got me gal”. I've worked in the NHS throughout the pandemic and before that for 6 years, and I was super cautious about everything I did, but recently I let that slide. I just went through a break up of sorts, where despite only being with the person for 2 months, I genuinely thought I meant someone special. I did meet someone special, but they aren't the different kind of special I was hoping they would be. After everything went tits up like it always does, I flew straight back onto the dating apps. I wanted to get myself into a different frame of mind and get excited about meeting other people, and this culminated in going clubbing again. I always said if I went to a club I would catch covid instantly, and despite calls from others to say that I was worrying too much, I was bloody right wasn...